Research

Why do I love research or adore researchers?

Every technology, system and medicine birth forth from research! Some times we might even grumble at the initial stage that it's such a nuisance that you need to adjust to such a change and adapt to this new technology. But nobody and no one will try to introduce something that will cause us inconvenient, though at the initial stage it may seems inconvenient because we are trying to get use to it! And at the beginning of every research project, the aim is to help improve life and to gain more knowledge of something that can help our lives. That is what makes me attracted to do research: Discover something that can help mankind!

It's because of research that we now have a better living standard, and a reduced in mortality rate. It's especially true in the area of healthcare. As we look back and compare the healthcare system from the past and now, we would realise the difference. The way we work, the type of medication we use, the new technology available to detect and diagnose diseases and the types of surgical intervention available has all changed.

All these would not have been possible if not for that person or that team who started the research to find out the possibility of it working!

However, not all research is 100% accurate and some might not turn out to be beneficial for all. And researchers don't get the answer or solution overnight! They need years and years of findings before a conclusion can be made depending on the type of research they are working on. It a tedious work and we should not rush to get an answer as it will affect the accuracy of the result. On top of that researcher must have the integrity as well. Some time due to the pressure from the outside world, certain information maybe compromise. So they must keep check of themselves.

Though I am a very quiet person when I was young or at least from what I remember about myself, I always have a lot of questions running through my head even up to now but there is no one who can actually answer all my questions. And I might be quiet during a meeting, but that doesn't mean that I am not thinking. I am just observing, evaluating and analyzing in my head. I find my ways to answer my own questions.

It not just getting the answer to my question fulfilling, but sharing the information I found exciting! Because I know these information will help some one else! :)

Looking forward to do some really good research in 2012! :)

Reflection

The year is coming to an end in 2 more months. As I look back at 2011, I thank God that I have grown, not the physical sense but in my maturity as a person.

I have more control over my emotions, my thoughts, the words i speak and effective socialization. I remember I used to become very depressed for no rhythm of reason, and at time will cry over little things that upset me in secret. Somehow I know something is wrong. This is a bondage that I need to breakthrough from. I begin to pray earnestly for deliverance. I start to notice the change in my emotion when the idol altar of my house was removed by my parents. I thank God for this breakthrough! Soon after, I opened my house for cg meeting. I felt that heaven is open over my life, and seen many breakthrough follows after this!

Joining this year young adult retreat was also a turning point in my life. During the retreat God spoke in a special way to me, and that touch from Him, changes my heart and mind! I gain a lot of confident with myself, knowing that God is for me and He is always with me. I begin to see breakthrough in my work place as I begin to build good bonding with my colleague, and communication with my ward sister got a lot better! As if the window of heaven really opened up for me! I felt more relief at work even though it is tiring and stressful. My relationship with my family also got closer.

I also want to thank God for the many new friends i made along the way. They taught me so much in life! They have been a great example to me in terms of how God can move in a miraculous way... And they teach me to communicate effectively at work and with the people I am leading.

I also realise that when I decide to become who God want me to be, He begin to show me the flaws I have so that I can change myself to become better. This season alot of things is surfacing and I need God's love and wisdom to overcome all things! Holy Spirit come and be my help I pray! :)

The Missing Adam

Have you ever had that feeling that something is missing in your life even when life to you is perfect?

These few years i experienced this more frequent then usual. I have been to many nice places and had great experience in those places; feels great sharing my experience with families and friends, but in my heart i just feel like wanting to share more to a person that is like a soul-mate to me. Not that sharing with friends and families is not enough just that i needed something more intimate.

Not that I am desperate for a man. But like what the Bible says in Genesis, "It not good for man to be alone". Perhaps that is why God created women to be man's companion. Something is unfulfilled when you are alone.

I am not saying that life will be perfect if you find that man, or finding that man is enough for your life. I am also not saying that man defines our life and gives meaning to our life. No, they should not be the one that define or validate our life, but God should.

Perhaps, I am in the season of my life that I need to find my Adam. So that the two of us can bring each other lives to the next level with God being the center of this relationship! The two of us can see God work greater things in our lives! Serving the Lord in the same house. :)

Birthdays

A few weeks ago I was having a gathering with my friends who were same age as me. We were randomly talking and we came to the topic on birthdays. Most of them was saying as they get older they don't see the point in celebrating their birthday because there is nothing to celebrate about, and every year it's about the same. Some people think that, it a once in a year event, hence you need to celebrate it. No! It should not be so.

Though it might seem to be the same every year, I still find my birthday special. And it should be special because it's the day God created me! The day He says "Alright, Angela! You are ready now, to experience earth, the beauty of my creation!" It's special because a new life is born. I have a reason to celebrate because I found my destiny and hope in God! I celebrate more on this special day because of HIS grace and mercy. It a day to remind me of HIS goodness in my life! And without this day I won't have a chance to meet amazing people He has placed in my life! :)

Every time I make a birthday card for people, these are the thought that is in my mind: God created you beautifully, amazingly, full of potential, talents and destiny; it's amazing that God created you. And I pray that the person will know the goodness of God.

So rejoice and celebrate this special day!!! You are made for greatness!!!

Journey of discovery

Recently, I have been reading this book Captivating by JOHN ELDREDGE. This book starts me on a journey to discover God's love for me, and bring me into a journey of emotional healing; addressing the issues that are so close to my heart.

First, I learn about what God had created me for and how important I am as a woman in HIS creation plan. Woman nourish life. And they also bring life into the world soulfully, relationally, spiritually-in everything they touch. Eve means "life"or "life producer". Adam named his wife Eve, because she would become the mother of all living. Satan know that this is a threat to him, so he hated woman and will do anything to deceive us, woman, into believing we are not good enough, there is no man who will love us, or we are just not beautiful at all.

Secondly, God LOVES me, and He pursue me with an everlasting love! Like a lover pursuing his lover. He always know what is close to my heart, my desire. He will just show me his creation and I will just be so captivated by it, and it touches my heart. The things that He created is so beautiful, magnificent, glorious and mind-blowing that no words can describe it.

I once dreamt of going to Australia and always wonder how does the pacific ocean looks and feels like. I never thought I would have a chance to travel there, but God made a way for me and I finally went and get to experience the life there. Though it a short trip with the school, it a gift from God. And I enjoy ever bit of it. I get to feel the breeze of the ocean and touch the fine grained sand on the seashore, it amazing! This is the small little things God did to captivate my heart and draw me closer to Him. This is not the only example. There are too many for me to list down.

Thirdly, beauty comes when our heart is not striving. We must be at ease with ourselves. We must address the wound in our heart, ask God to heal those areas that has been bugging and affecting us. Ask God to show us our beauty. One important thing, we must not let anyone validate our life! He/She can't tell you who you are, only the one and true creator-God can validate you because He created you, not man! Don't go looking for things, people, theory to validate your life because you can never find true meaning of your life. Look to the LORD for your meaning in life.

Lastly, beauty invites, offers mercy, isn't demanding, it deepens a relationship. ;)

Managing expectation

Yesterday a friend of mine was complaining to me about how frustrated she was about this guy who just can't match up to what was expected of him as a leader or a man.

I can empathize with her frustration. But what kept me thinking was this: Firstly, are we putting too much expectation on a person? Secondly, why should they be obligated to keep to our expectation?

I come to realize that everyone of us have our own expectation we want to meet, and these expectation are different for every individual one of us. So my expectation might not be the same as yours. Maybe for me by doing A, B, and C I can achieve D, but to you, by doing B, C, and A you can achieve D. So no point getting all upset and work up when people don't meet our expectation.

And people are not obligated to follow our expectation. We all have our freedom to choose! God gave us the freedom to choose in life as well. We don't have the right to ask someone else to follow what we do. But one thing we can do is to show them by our lifestyle. The way you lead your life produces good result. When people see the fruit of your labour, they might follow.

So the next time when you meet some one and they don't meet your expectation, don't get frustrated. They have a different expectation from yours and they are not obligated to meet up to your expectation. Let your lifestyle show them what is right! ;)

Love my church

It the season of the year that I think a lot. Maybe the year is coming to an end soon, and a season to evaluate the year.

I can't imagine a life without God. For without HIM, I am nothing.

Really thank God for City Harvest Church. Despite of the many negative comments and things that happened, I never regret joining this church. It's where I really found and learn to know this Amazing God that I serve, and where I found my life's destiny and purpose.

It's a place where I learn more about myself, a place for dreams to be realized, a place for success to be celebrated, a place where I find peace, joy, love and hope, a place I learn about faith, perseverance, courage and loyalty, a place that I can exercise my natural talent and spiritual gifts! Many life's lessons gained; I can't find it any where else except here.

I feel really honored to be able to serve God together with the amazing leaders He had placed in my life. Pst Kong, Sun, Pst Tan, Pst Zhuang, Xue Ling, Jie Ying, Wendy Goh, Ariel, Qiu Ping, Mikki, Bee Leng. Thank God for you guys! I have grown in my walk with God because of your love, sacrifice and dedication to the church. You guys have been my inspiration in life.

It's amazing how God has seen me through all these years. I am loving HIM more and more each day. I believe no matter what obstacles may come my way, God will continue to see me through, and I know and I know at the end of the day, I will grow stronger!!! I love you, JESUS.